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Is this it?

16/1/2014

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A new year is here, but what has changed? Should our lives just go on and on?

Alarm clock rings

Someone cries

Getting out of bed

Warm bed

Do not want to leave bed

Warm feet against cold wooden floor

Quickly pull them back under cover

Eyelids want to close

Rubbing eyes

Thinking: Is this it?

Is this it?

The child cries, calling me

Pushing myself out of bed

Getting up

Wiping tears off cheek of small child, explaining the dream

After quick shower: rapidly creating 3 breakfasts

Nagging about eating breakfast

Nagging about getting dressed

Nagging about brushing teeth

Nagging about packing school bag

But do not nag too much because then little one breaks down

Putting on mascara - quickly

On the way out: did I eat breakfast?

Running to preschool

Someone forgot gloves today

Running even faster back home again

Door unlocked, found a meaning in the meaningless.

Sweaty in suit jacket

Old jam stain on suit jacket

Finally at preschool

Trying to smile at the staff

Me not stressed

Nope

Calm and peaceful

Little one clings onto me

Doesn't want me to go

Neither do I.

Bending her arms off my neck

Waving to the big round teary filled eyes

My eyes fill too

Running to bus

Tear on tights

May be covered by boot if lucky

Panting

Bus just pulled out

Late for work

Did I eat breakfast?

Inbox: 91 unread e-mails

Respond to 7 before first meeting

Colleagues with glazed eyes enter the meeting room

One is happy

Have missed to hand in report

Embarrassing silence

Am usually on top of things, in control

Jam stain on jacket flashes its evil eye at me

Did I or didn't I eat breakfast?

Sitting in front of computer

Dreaming

Googling on trip to Thailand

Long white sandy beaches sneer at me

Thinking of the 2 weeks of rain on the long-awaited vacation that just passed

 Thailand, is that life?

Where is my life?

Can all of us live in Thailand?

Is that the answer?

Can everyone work and live wherever they want?

Without responsibilities?

Awakened from my dream by next meeting

Colleague is standing by my desk

Trying to practice mindfulness at next meeting

Should work out too...

Guilt - my best friend

Yoga, is that the answer?

The report, how could I forget?

Mindfulness right, someone speaks, do I listen?

What is the meaning of life?

Thailand?

Thai lunch today at local restaurant

Sushi tomorrow

Naan bread on Wednesday

Is this life?

A different country each lunch

Why dwell?

Someone says: Live instead

Look within

Hello? Are you in there?

Where am I?

Where do I live and who am I?

Now I'm at a Thai Restaurant

A small piece of Thailand in my stomach

I chew slowly and enjoy it

I decide

To live

Not to dwell

No regrets

No longing but living

I'll be and I'll live

I walk out into the rain and +4 degrees and I think to myself:

I'm me, I'm alive and I am well

I create my own life

My own truth

My own Thailand

I live in a country of rain, snow and darkness

But I always have a Thailand inside

An oasis to which I can travel whenever I want

I have decided

My life is now and it's good

This is my New Years Resolution.

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Climb every mountain

7/1/2014

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I couldn't have said it better myself:

Climb every mountain,
Search high and low,
Follow every byway,
Every path you know.

Climb every mountain,
Ford every stream,
Follow every rainbow,
'Till you find your dream.

A dream that will need
All the love you can give,
Every day of your life
For as long as you live.

Climb every mountain,
Ford every stream,
Follow every rainbow,
Till you find your dream

A dream that will need
All the love you can give,
Every day of your life,
For as long as you live.

Climb every mountain,
Ford every stream,
Follow every rainbow,
Till you find your dream.

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