I don’t want to be 6-figure-successful
I don’t want to run a 1 million projects
I don’t want to upshift
I don’t want to write a cook book
I don't want to become a Youtube celeb
I’m surrounded by people and social media telling me to work, to improve, to grow, to build something, to fight, to gain, to compete, to always aim for more. For bigger, broader and better. Dream big, make a change, save the world!
But what if we don't want to?
In my confusion with what is me and what is everyone else I do have 1 million projects going on at once. But sometimes I wonder why. What is pushing me to keep on doing this?
I look at others bragging about their 6-figure businesses, how they grew from small to big. How they started with nothing but two hands and a at best a computer (usually a Mac). And at times I am jealously wondering – how do they do it?
What if we don't want to, need to, wish to. Are we lazy? What if I just want to sit under a palm tree and sip on a cocktail?!
I will probably never save thousands of children from trafficking, become a famous yoga teacher, run several marathons in every capital or in the desert. I will never tour the world as a famous rock star, create a fund-raising community and speak to thousands of people at once on how to save the world.
I will never rescue pandas, tigers or whales (unless it's from the comfort of my computer).
I will never learn how to cook raw food and then write a fabulous cook book about it with glossy pics of carrots that I have grown in my own garden.
I will never have a clean home with fancy furniture from Svenskt Tenn. My nails have not seen a french manicure for many years and my hair is at its best chopped off at the local drop-in hairdresser place.
I am not, however, any less happier.
The only thing that makes me unhappy is when I think I am not good enough. When I compare myself and think this old soul won't do. Cause it does.
Instead I do what I do because I love it.
I sing, not for the sake of being famous, but because it’s my passion. I write blog posts and books, because it's my soul speaking and I can't get it to shut up. I teach dreaming and living soulfully to groups because it is in my nature I can't help myself and no it doesn’t make me rich at all. I travel because it is my spirit’s journey.
I work out – not to become a triathlete but to feel good. I meditate and do yoga not to be trendy, but because my body yearns for it. I give money to charity because others do fund-raising so well. I speak to small groups because it's where I am comfortable and it is where my heart is at the mo.
I do what I do because it's my life and I need my soul to sing at this very level and this is my (current) life song.
What is your life song? How do you sing it and what is your happy-level? I'm sure it is just perfect. Just for you. Right where you are now. And if it's not - you have the prerogative to change it. Any time you like.
"On a deeper level you are already complete. When you realize that there is playful, joyous energy behind what you do" - Eckart Tolle