I have always been a shoulder to cry on, handing out handkerchiefs left and right.
In the last few years I have taken several personal development courses and I have learnt that the things I new were right, being grateful, positive thinking, work with affirmations and creating dream boards are good things.
I write a plan each year setting my goals and dreams and letting it all fall into the right soil, the right energies, so that I will attract the right things and let them easily come to me. I work hard along the way and jump on opportunities as they come my way.
I have a money frog in my home, I have feng shuied my ’money-corner’ in my house, I write ’thank you’ on every bill to create a positive energy around them instead of creating anxiety.
I go for walks in the woods to ground myself and drag energy from the trees (and because I love it). I eat eco-friendly food, I do yoga and I go for runs, I meditate, I teach meditation techniques.
I have created a positive surrounding for myself and hang out with like-minded people to lift myself up. I am grateful for what I have and I set goals for all that I wish to achieve.
OK, I think I’ve made my point.
But sometimes I feel I do everything so darn ’right’ I forget that I have to let myself go.
I have to let myself moan, nag and complain. Let myself be in a miserable state - allow myself to be human.
I strive for perfection in being the ultimate yogi-guru-saint-person so much that I forget to let my hair down.
If you’re like me, we don’t need another gratitude-book. We already have 10.
We don’t need another green smoothie recipe we already have 3 machines.
We don't need to meditate, we already have all the cds, mp3s and our drop box is full of audio files. What we need is to get really really drunk and make fool out of ourselves for an evening or two.
We don’t need to be humble, we’ve already swallowed so many stories of our greatness because we don’t want to brag. What we need is to let them out and brag about them so much that people raise their eyebrows.
We don’t need to go for a walk in the forrest, we’re already intoxicated with chlorophyll, we need to lay on the sofa watching trashy tv eating chips and drink coke.
We don't need to sit in silence, cause were so full of void, instead we need to nag, moan and get lost in negativity for a few hours.
Because if we are striving to be too perfect we burn out.
What we need is balance. Joy for no reason and to get really silly and make a fool out of ourselves for a while.
That doesn't mean getting stuck in negativity. It means allowing you to be you - all the way, bones and blood, tears and joy, silliness running wild.
Let go and cry until you look really, really ugly.
You need to allow yourself to be small, jealous of other peoples’ success and to say something nasty out loud.
You need to show the world you are every bit as human as the next guy.
Stop carrying the world on your shoulders
Miss an appointment, turn up late for a parent-meeting, forget to water your plants and wear a really ugly jumper.
Leave the house unlocked, drink a glass of wine for lunch, or drink three and take the next bus. Leave work early without a reason and cook an unhealthy meal for the family. Or don’t cook. Whatever is your hangup? Do it or don’t do it and see what happens within you.
Be you all the way - nasty and nice.